I’m doing the 30 Days of Letter Writing project. It is challenging and maybe you should try it, too. I miss several people equally, but, alas, I can only write about one.
Dear Grampy,
It has been many years - over 19 to be exact, since you passed away, and the pain does not go away. The sense of loss cannot be put into words. It just feels like a piece of my soul is missing. I’ve gone through life, but sometimes I get this feeling that I am going through the motions. In my adult mind I can accept that your death was not a rejection of me - everyone has to go at some point - but the child in me wonders if there was something I could have done to make you stay a little while longer.
I didn’t participate in graduation ceremonies from college because I felt like what’s the point? Gramps can’t be here. I still hadn’t gotten over it. Even when I visit your grave site, I am overcome with grief so deep that I wonder if I’ll ever get over it enough not to cry anymore. I’ve been disappointed by many things in my life, even experienced great sadness and physical pain.
I wonder if the pain will ever go away. We’ll see. Until then, I’ll be thinking of you.
Ellie
